WTF

do you just turn off your feelings for me? how can you just not think about calling me?? or do you? maybe you do think about it and then just don't... either way i sure don't understand you honey.... i crave being with you and sometimes feel like i can't bear it another minute... please call, please just let me hear your voice. it tortures me so to be apart from you and all i ask is just the sound of your voice... just the sound of your voice lets me know everything is alright.

Her

Why doesn't she call??? is it truly out of sight out of mind? she is so tortured sometimes, but plays games at the same time. in her head i don't know what is said. in her heart i feel one with her. when she is away she seems to just shut me and everyone else out. she says there is nothing between them and I believe that. i don't know how others handle m-f platonic relationships. especially ones that are like this. i really believe he wants her. but he can't fucking have her. she is no ones' property and that is always part of the problem. the problem that she is a free spirit yet so imprisoned by her thoughts, she says she can't stop them sometime. it didn't help that i was acting like a control freak jerk and barrelling through things like a steam roller.... when she is gone i feel empty. i sit and stare and attempt to pass the time as quickly as possible. she said six days. i will count on and believe and trust in her word on that. it seems like an eternity though i tell you. how did i fall so hard in love with this woman?? she enraptures me with her very being. She is such a beautiful, caring, sexy lady. she has a heart the size of a giant... the bigger the heart the more vulnerable i guess. i have much regret for the past yet hope for the future. please come home quick my love.... you promised only six days and i'm counting on that... i need you baby, do you understand? how much can a man love a woman? gotta go now cuz you're calling and i can't WAIT to talk to you!!!